Back to Square One

I have encountered too much this week. My entire life is in transition, always had and will always be, but am I happy? I cannot be too sure about this.

As I plug in my iPod this morning, the songs are familiar but the feeling is different. The meaning of the songs have some what changed. There is a certain sadness it brings.
Sadness that I left home.
Sadness that I didn't reconcile with my sister before I left.
Sadness that I left my love one.
Sadness that I left my best friends behind.
Sadness that I left my dog behind.
Sadness that I may lose someone I love during this period when I am gone.
Sadness that I will miss those fun moments.

I opened up my Facebook profile and read through my past. Facebook is like my history book. It reads my emotion, my outlook and my state at that point of time. It seems time has gone by too fast. I could have sworn that I had just broken my Dad's vase at age 9 or singing in the car with my sisters at age 5.

Memories. How do we keep them without feeling the emotions that may affect how we are today? As we stop to look back into our past, the earth continues spinning. We cannot stop this continual change in life. I can't and I think no one can. We are evolving each day and hopefully for the better.

I tend to dwell and be boiled down by the miseries and my actions that result into some form of displeasure, and yes, I get really affected. I feel like my feet is in some form of quicksand and I can't move on. People, trust me, from someone who lives, breathe, eat, drink drama, leave everything behind and move on. Its not that people will forget what you've done, its more for yourself, don't repeat it and get on with life already. As contridicting as I sound, I am doing my best to move with time.

I am back here in Perth where I've stayed for 2 years. Everything seems familiar but a different feeling. Back then, I was outside looking in, today, I am looking out from the inside. Yes, things have changed and so did I.

Good Day Mate!